31 May 2017

Currently I'm...#24

Since my last 'currently I'm...' post I've had a wee re-brand and possibly got some new readers (hello!) so maybe it's time for a re-introduction. Currently I'm... is a series I started in 2013 as a way of keeping a record of how life's going for me at that moment in time, sharing the stuff I'm doing, the books I'm reading, the music I'm loving and the shows I'm watching. I wanted to be able to look back at a Currently I'm... post and see exactly what was going on in my life that week, like a really small online time capsule...kinda. I've always loved writing these posts and they're some of my favourites to re-read months or years later. I never thought I'd keep the series up for 4 years but here we are. Time for #24. ♥

Listening To
The past month or so I've discovered one of my very favourite albums and I'm totally smitten. I'm a bit late to the party but it really doesn't matter when it comes to music. All I know is life is slightly more beautiful now I've found The Divine Feminine by Mac Miller. There's something so special about this album and I have no idea what it is or how to describe it. It's just so easy to listen to and I feel so at ease when it's playing. It's bloody brilliant. The entire album centres around love but not in a corny way - there's not a single cliche on it - and there's something so intimate about the way he writes. It's warm and sexy and cosy and just amazing. Jesus. My favourite tracks are Dang! - a total bop with Anderson .Paak's infectious energy (love that man) and some really funky jazzy bits - and My Favourite Part feat. Ariana Grande which I genuinely can't listen to without smiling. One of best albums I've heard in a long time. 

If you're a long-time reader of ma wee blog, you'll probably remember my short-lived days as a book-blogger. I used to be a massive reader and my room was slowly but steadily evolving into a library, but things have changed a bit over the past year and now I struggle to get through a book. I think it's down to my CFS and the brain fog that comes along with it but my concentration really isn't what it used to be. It's hard to not get down about it so my way of dealing and keeping that bit of brain engaged is reading magazines instead. It's kind of a blessing in disguise because I've discovered an absolutely beautiful magazine - Oh Comely. I treated myself to a year's subscription and it's been so lovely getting 130-odd pages of just pure joy landing on my doormat every month. Oh Comely's an independent magazine full of art, culture, photography, poetry, fashion, design, music, stories and interviews with inspirational people. It's so varied but everything in it is just so easy and beautiful to look at. The best thing to do with Oh Comely is go have a flick through it for yourself (it's available in small newsagents in the UK) - you'll fall in love. 

The past week has been pretty difficult for me health-wise so I've found myself with wayyy too much time on my hands and a lot of tv shows to get through. Try not to judge me too hard but season 2 of Sam and Cat got put on Netflix and it pretty much made my life. I don't even care what you think because that show is just pure joy and you're missing out on hours of fun if you haven't seen it. Seriously just pure, stupid joy. It's a Nickelodeon kids show about babysitters but it's better than it sounds (and it has Ariana Grande in it so it's gotta be good). Moving on to less shameful loves, I recently finished season 12 of Greys Anatomy after a solid year of working my way through the box-sets with my mum. I'm way too invested in that show but I'm in too deep now to get out. This week, I went back to season 1 to start all over again and it's just as good the second time. Can you tell how much time I've had on my hands? 

What have you been loving lately? Feel free to go back and have a look at the Currently I'm... archive
Catriona xo

11 May 2017

Be Proud Of Yourself

I'm really hard on myself. Maybe if I write that I'll  make an effort to change it, cos I really should. 

At the beginning of 2017, I started keeping a wee journal and in it I would write my to-do lists, goals, wishlists, and daily achievements. I started writing down the things that I should be proud of myself for, no matter how tiny they were, so I could look back at them when I was feeling crappy and think, "goddam girl, you're doing well". For some reason, I stopped doing it a couple months back. I need to get back into it. Truth is, I spend way too much time beating myself up and not enough time celebrating my achievements and I feel like a lot of you can maybe relate to that. For some reason, it's human-nature to focus on the negatives and whilst looking for ways you can improve yourself is hella important, it's just as important to take a moment to think about all the wee ways your killing it at life. Be proud of yourself! 

Some of the achievements I wrote down at the start of the year were how I cooked for the first time in ages, made banana bread once a week for a few months consistently (need to get back into that one, banana bread is the best), gradually eased myself back into yoga after a long break, met my boyfriend's best friends, and went to my friend's flat party with a load of people I didn't know. I'm still proud of myself for each and every one of those. I haven't written down my achievements since March but now seems like as good a time as any to get back into the habit. So, me. What have ye achieved lately?

There's one pretty big thing that happened recently; I finished my second year of uni. I'm still waiting for a couple grades and I'm terrified of jinxing it but, fingers crossed, I've passed everything. In all honestly, I wasn't sure I'd make it through 2nd year. I got diagnosed with chronic fatigue syndrome last August and starting back at uni was a massive shock to the system. The first semester was super rocky and I took quite a lot of time off. I got my first ever extension on an essay and for a while, I thought uni might be too much for me. Looking back now, I'm incredibly proud of myself. The second semester got slightly easier and, although I've definitely had some rough spots, I made it through. If that isn't reason to be proud of myself then I don't know what is. 

One thing I know future me will look back on with a mixture of immense pride and sheer panic is a pitch I did last week. Somehow (seriously no clue how I managed it without throwing up on the spot), I pitched an idea for a radio show to industry professionals from the BBC and STV. That genuinely happened. Had to wear a blazer and everything. I'm proud of myself for that. 

On a smaller scale but still something to be super proud of, I've been looking after myself. I've been doing yoga a few times a week for months now (even treated myself to a new yoga mat), drinking more than I ever have before, and I can't remember the last day I didn't manage three meals. Self-care is something to make a priority and if you've managed to make it one, be proud of yourself.

Going super small scale, I went to the doctors by myself for the first time ever a month or so ago. I used to faint every time I stepped foot in the place so, in a weird way, that's the biggest achievement of all. Go me. 

Celebrate the wee things, be proud of yourself, and fill your thoughts with positive vibes and self-assurance. You're doing great, I know it.

Catriona xo
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