2 May 2015

I've Left School & I Feel Old


I can't quite believe I'm writing this right now but I've kinda officially left school.

This time last year, I wrote a post 'On Leaving, Growing Up & Missed Opportunities' and I guess that, in a way, this is the second installment. Last year, I was mildly freaking out about the old sixth years leaving school. It shook me up a bit and made me realise that, in a year's time, I would be leaving school too. I had always seen the sixth years as so much older and more mature than me so when they left school, it suddenly hit home that I need to be as old and mature as they were. I was a sixth year. They had been my safety blanket and now my safety blanket had been ripped from my arms and sent away on a train to Glasgow uni. Now, less than a year after that post went live, I'm out of school. 

It's funny, in a way. I spent all of this past school year saying to my friends that I'm not ready to leave and that I would never survive at uni. I can't count the number of mornings that were spent talking to Rachel about leaving school. All year, I was like "I'm not reading to leave right now but I'm sure I'll feel a lot more ready in May" but, unfortunately, that ain't true. It came so quickly and I'm still not ready to leave school, but it's too late. I feel like I'm on holiday but I'm not...I've left school. If this is brain mush then I don't know what is.

I genuinely feel so old. I'm turning 18 in 3 months. I'm looking into setting up a current account (whatever the heck that is). I'm applying to SAAS. I'm looking for a part-time job. I'm considering starting driving lessons. I even made a freaking chana masala the other day. I'm practically an adult. To add fuel to this fire, I went for a walk purely so I could listen to Bob Dylan on Thursday and I've taken up knitting. It's kinda like I'm skipping the full 'young adult' stage and going straight to being an old lady. Gonna get my OAP bus-pass soon. 

Right now, I'm studying for my exams. I've got 4 exams to sit during May, then a wee leavers day to attend and a leavers form to get signed before I'm an official school leaver. I have the hoody to prove it. Then in early September, I'm off to university. I tried to avoid it for the longest time but the truth is, I'm getting old. Ah well. 

Lots of love,
Cat

10 comments:

  1. I love this. You've made me realise things that I try and put off thinking about. I've always been someone who wants to grow up, probably because I've not enjoyed being a teenager, but like you I'm currently deciding whether I'm going to start taking driving lessons in December and quite frankly I don't know what the hell a current account is. I guess it's one of those things where although it may be painful, it's just the next chapter in your life, and it might be even better than this one has been xx

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    1. Starting the next chapter is always a little bit scary but super exciting :'D xx

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  2. Love this post, good luck in your exams! Also the photo is soo cute, I love your style! x

    ratherstrangeblog.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Thank you hun!! <3 xx

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  3. Yikes!! I'm doing my Highers at the moment (I should be studying ... not on Blogger ... but c'est la vie!) and can't believe that I'll be a sixth year next year. Sixth years are *old*. To a first (or second or third) year, sixth years seem like adults! They have it together! Sixth years know how life works! Sixth years have wild parties and boyfriends and make-up skills! Live will have worked itself out by the time I'm a sixth year!

    Only now am I realising .... none of that is true.

    And I can't believe that in a year, I'll be gone.

    I guess that, once you're off to uni, you go back to that first year stage and you will no longer feel so old! I hope that everything goes well with you - don't stress, worry etc. Uni will be a great time, I promise. Where and what are you studying? :)

    Emily x

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    1. Good luck with your Highers! I'm sure you'll do great :D
      In my experience, sixth years have mild parties, some boyfriends and passable make-up skills....Life will totally straighten out when you're in sixth year, trust me :'D
      Leaving is a scary thought but you have a full year to prepare! You'll be fiiiiine.
      I'm going to Glasgow Caledonian to study media and communication. Thank you! ♥ xx

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  4. Lovely post- I'm obsessed with those shoes!

    I finished year 11 last week and I'm leaving my school to go to another college or sixth form and it really does feel so super strange to leave everything that you're used to but at the same time exciting to start something new! I wish you so much good luck at university. I can't believe how long I've been following your blog, the time has flown by: it's scary! ♥

    Oh and good luck with exams, aswell, I've done 13/25 of my GCSEs ahh

    Milly x

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    1. Good luck with sixth form and the rest of your exams! You're gonna kill it! :D
      Thank you so much for leaving such a lovely comment, it made my day ♥ xx

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